[pictures from market days in the ville]
I have found contentment in ignorance – for now, at least.
Since the doctor gave me a list of possibilities on Thursday, I’ve decided NOT to Google anything.
(Again, for now.)
But you can bet a buck on a duck that I’ll be a Googlin’ fool once I finally get a diagnosis.
It’s just too much information to sort & sift through…and excuse the pun, but I’ve already got enough ‘some-tings’ in my brain.
I’m just practicing my patience and waiting it out like a good little soldier.
So while we wait, here’s the deal…
Did you know that the average person is allotted 1 brain lesion for every ten years of life?
So…doing the math here…if you wanted to round up, I should have 4.
I’ve got 8.
And they’re all in the white matter of my brain, not the gray.
The gray matter is for all your everyday functions – sight, sound, memory, coordination, etc.
The white matter, as I understand it, controls the connections between your left & right brain.
So I’m imagining one day I might be waving hello with one hand & flippin’ you off with the other.
(Not really…I think….but it sounds funny.)
So the good news for now is that I can pass a motor skills test at 100%.
I look, feel & walk just like everybody else – perfectly normal.
But I’m not.
So for now I wait in ignorance until I get a call from the doctor with the first of the results.
And we’ll go from there.
*Thank you all for all the comments of support. I know I still owe each of you a response. But it’s getting late here, I’ve contracted some sort of head cold through the middle of all this, the dogs haven’t let me get more than 5 hours of sleep the past 2 nights & I’m just beyond exhausted. A grown woman…crawling in bed at 9:15pm on a Saturday night.
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And one awesome woman at that. Thinking of you every day. Keep your wonderful sense of humor….it will get you through this. Hugs.
Jenn,
I’m glad you have had a chance to get your feet back under you and some wind back in your sails. However, I know your genetic makeup and you may be somewhat back to your old self, but you ain’t fooling me that you are normal. We never were NORMAL!!!!
We always see “tings” a little differently, usually with that little bit of humor. It just seems to makes life a little easier.
And as far as hitting the sack a little early, you have been through hell and back in the last few weeks and you are mentally exhausted. That is worse on your body than hard physical labor and you need to finally get some much needed rest. you won’t find anyone surprised that you are sleep deprived. Shoot…I’m surprised you can even get out of bed!!!
Take care of yourself and get plenty of vitamin c. Love you much.
ah i love your blog..i’m stationed in camp red cloud..it’s horrible up in area 1 (i’ve been here since aug 09)..i wish i was down south..it must be nice down south married with more freedoms..I can’t wait for the weather to get better so I can enjoy korea more
I thought you might be interested to learn that my sister, Anne, (the one you designed the MouseFeathers logo for) went blind for about 15 minutes a few years ago and had a series of appointments with specialists of the brain. She had an MRI and it showed several brain lesions ( I can’t remember how many). She totally freaked out when her doctor told her it looked “consistent with MS”. But she never got MS and Lymes was also discussed- it seems to cause every symptom under the sun. The blindness never returned, either…..
Anne, like you, went through the whole medical thing- so frustrating and scary. I hate that you have to go through it, too! It makes me feel like cussing!!!!
PS In case you don’t realize it, your photos are amazingly good- you clearly have a real talent for photography as well as design. I admire the fact that you continue to write and take photos while you deal with this #!@&ing turn of events.
Love you! Gail